So I went to the doctor. I thought perhaps I was suffering from PPD. I had a hard time bringing it up and almost let the appointment go without saying anything. (I was there on a regular maintenance appointment) Then at the last minute I summoned my courage and told him I was having a hard time. I was embarrassed and immediately started to cry. He told me it was not PPD, that if it was it would have hit at about 8-10 weeks. He asked if I was exorcising. I said I was taking the kids for walks in the stroller, I chase Boston a lot. Apparently this doesn't count. Even after I told him I have lost 15 more pounds than I even gained with the pregnancy it still didn't count. His diagnosis, I am stretching myself too thin. He said I need to let myself "off the hook" once and a while. According to him, exorcise doesn't let off much steam when you are anxious about your son running into the street and getting hit by a car and being paralyzed for life. I was told I need at least 30 minutes of alone time exorcise and I would be fine. He also recommended that I take a few of the activities in my life off my plate.
Ummm, right
Such as what?
Caring for my babies? Can't give up that, quit my job? Nope, can't do that either. Stop doing housework? CPS will take my kids away from me if I do that.
There is pretty much nothing I can give up. It's not like I have a whole lot of extra circular activities planned. This is just called life. And apparently to survive it I need to exorcise more, which will only be effective if I do it without the kids. So lets see, when do I not have to kids...... Ummmm, never? I have them all day while Andy is at work, during which Boston does not take a nap. Then I go straight to work as soon as Andy gets home. When I get home from work Andy has Scarlett prepped for bed and ready to eat. By the time I nurse her and get her to bed it is about 9 pm. Then we have dinner. So my optimum chance for childless exorcise would be some time after 9:30 at night. Oh wait, that is when we start to get ready for bed.
So my plan is, just as soon as the kids start school I will start exorcising effectively. That is only 5 more years away........ if we don't have anymore kids. I can totally make it until then.
4 comments:
hearing you loud and clear on this one! Yeah, sure, I'll exercise just as soon I can do it kid free too. So apparently we're going to figure out how to make our work hours our work-OUT hours. uh huh
I don't have kids and I can't even seem to find time to exercise. But when I do get myself to do it, the exercise of choice for me is yoga. Yeah, it's not cardiovascular, but it gets my heart rate going and the deep breathing does wonders for me. And best of all, I don't have to leave home to do it. I have two yoga tapes--my 30-minute yoga, and my hour yoga for when I'm feeling more ambitious. But I even know of 15-minute yoga tapes that would be great. And that could be done any time of day. You should look into it--way easier than having to leave the house to go jogging!
Yes, exercise is very hard to squeeze into the day. Totally agree on that one. But, like "heath" said, yoga tapes would be a good idea. Even that might be hard to squeeze in -- your days sound long and tiresome. Maybe some deep meditation right before you go to sleep? I don't know. I struggle with finding joy in life at times too. I think stress is my biggest problem there. Hang in there!
I understand how your feeling. Honestly, it doesn't get any easier when your little ones get a little older. YOU just get busier. Either get up earlier or try to let SOMETHING (not sure what) go. I've been through the same thing. Especially when my kids were little.
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